So here I am, finally settled in at a very nice place. After visiting some places I found on Craigslist, I chose my current place simply because of how close it is to work. It takes me 2-3 minutes to get to the light rail station, then another 2-3 on the actual trolly (2 stops) and then I walk for 10 minutes max, maybe 15 if I really take my time. So all that is awesome. What’s not awesome is the fact that there are not many places to eat around this area. Other two apartments I’ve looked at, had many eateries, grocery stores and other fun things to do all around them. They were also furnished and cost less than this one. Unfortunately, I got a call from one of those apartments and the lady let me know that she chose someone else to rent the room out to. The other apartment from those two was simply a bit too far and inconvinient since getting to work is first priority.

But in hindsight, that apartment would have probably been perfect. I could deal with waking up earlier to get to work on time.. what I cannot deal with is not eating. From this place, I can’t even get to a grocery store easily, not even talking hauling all the groceries back here (I have pretty much nothing here, so first time I shop for them is gonna result in a LOT of things to haul back!).

Should I also mention all the furniture I had to buy? I didn’t have time to shop around on Craigslist because I was moving yesterday and work started today. So Ikea was the solution. I got a bed, sheets, pillows, $20 computer table, chair and a really cheap lamp. Surprisingly with everything (also matress and other smaller things) the bill added up to being just over $300. NOT bad at all, but considering I’m paying way more for this apartment and then furniture on top of that, I’m not a happy camper. But nothing to do about that now, it’s over with and I hope to sell the furniture via Craigslist before moving out. It’ll only be 2 months old.

The struggle to get around

I guess I’ve already briefly complained about that above. Being from the suburb, I’m not used to public transportation. Sure, I take it while I’m in school, but my school is in the city, which means, I’ll usually take the bus a few stops and everything is readily available. Even when I took hour-long ride back to my house from my college, there weren’t many worries since I didn’t have to plan anything around that time… I’d just take the first or the last bus available and arrive whenever. Here on other hand.. I have to plan out everything before going out and so far it’s a huge hassle and one I would very very much try to avoid, but staying at home is horrific so far.

The struggle of being alone

Last few days I’ve been very depressed. My girlfriend left to go back home after being here for me for a week, helping to find the apartment and keeping me on track. I feel so lost without her, yet it’s nice that she’s not completely out of my life, just simply far away. So phone conversations are definitely a plus! She’s my support beam and I haven’t been away from her like that before, so saying goodbye at the airport was very very hard and if you, the reader is also truly in love, you’d know what I’m talking about.

On top of having my support beam misplaced, I feel so alone since I hardly know anyone here. And having to rely on the few people that I DO know isn’t convenient, because I feel like a hassle to them (asking for rides, etc.)

They’re also all over 21 and being 20 myself, it’s not helping with Saturday night plans if you know what I mean. And finding others in the same shoes is so hard considering we’re smack-dab in Silicon Valley and most people that live here are adults or young adults and obviously, our interests differ. My mom suggests taking up reading, which I like, but not so much since I’m always always always around people and that’s the way I like it.

So being a social person, who doesn’t turn to reading much for entertainment and who enjoys going out way more than staying in, definitely makes this a very very hard transition for me.

I guess that’s it for now. Hopefully next post will be much happier, but I’m nothing but sad lately, which isn’t new to me having gone through a lot in my life, but for those that know me, I’m a joker and one who usually carries a smile on his face. And everytime I’m sad, I constantly try to figure out a way to be that same happy person I usually am.

Hopefully with time, I’ll have that smile again.